Saturday, January 8, 2011

Confession Time

I just had a huge moment of self realization. Rules scare me, not because I'm rebellious but because I'm scared of doing something wrong. I'm scared of all the things I'm supposed to live up to, and terrified that I just can't live up to them.

I just bought John Ortberg's book The Me I Want To Be and I just read something amazing. Jesus did not say " I have come so that you might follow the rules." He said, " I have come so that you might have life, and have it with abundance."

This is in a way very freeing to me. The Christian walk isn't about checking off that you have accomplished certain things, or it shouldn't be. It's about growing spiritually and not following the set of rules that society wants you to live by. For the longest time the question "How is your spiritual life?" scared me to death. I always felt like I was falling short of where I "should" be. I constantly measured my spiritual growth by what I saw of others'. I recently realized that where I think I should be and where God plans for me to be are totally different. And His plan for me is totally different from His plans for others.

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